but I doubt I'll ever be able to do it. I've come to find that I only 'like' men in scenarios that involve this fetish. Even the thought of being held or stroked on my private parts while getting punched is something that turns me on. But so far, as a gut punching 'virgin', these are just thoughts. I don't actually know if I would still feel this way during an actual session, or if I'd be tossing and turning in bed the night before, having a panic attack at the thought of ever being this intimate with a man. I'm bi, so it could be a woman, too, and I'm into women even outside of this fetish, not just in it. But I admit, there's something hot about getting my abs brutalised and slowly turned to mush by a man, then forced to cum – the fantasy of it at least.
I guess I feel scummy. And picky. I've been rejected a few times, and I've also been ghosted (and ghosted back, I'm genuinely sorry to say), but I've also looked at some profiles and thought that I couldn't see myself ever doing something sexual with them, even in a gut punching session. And I freely admit, I myself have a face for radio.
At this point, I feel like I could settle for just the experience of being punched, kneed, kicked, etc. in the gut. I could settle for just finally getting to know what that actually feels like from another person. But I don't know any more if I still care about the personal relationship side of things. I've talked with so many guys on here and genuinely wanted friendship, but now I just imagine myself stood in front of a big gloryhole that's level with my abs and just getting pounded on by anyone who happens to show up. I've become quite selfish in my desperation.
What I mean is, there's limitations to how I feel comfortable meeting people, and on top of everything else, I just don't know if it's even possible anymore. If I could, I'd snap my fingers and magically will a gut punching machine into existence (or a tennis ball one).
Not to make anyone suddenly feel defensive, but from the bottom of my heart, I know how people are on here, so I know this post will either likely be met with indifference or contempt, possibly empathy by one or two. I don't know. I don't even know what I hope to gain here.
Forever Seeking (0)
3 days agobut I doubt I'll ever be able to do it. I've come to find that I only 'like' men in scenarios that involve this fetish. Even the thought of being held or stroked on my private parts while getting punched is something that turns me on. But so far, as a gut punching 'virgin', these are just thoughts. I don't actually know if I would still feel this way during an actual session, or if I'd be tossing and turning in bed the night before, having a panic attack at the thought of ever being this intimate with a man. I'm bi, so it could be a woman, too, and I'm into women even outside of this fetish, not just in it. But I admit, there's something hot about getting my abs brutalised and slowly turned to mush by a man, then forced to cum – the fantasy of it at least.
I guess I feel scummy. And picky. I've been rejected a few times, and I've also been ghosted (and ghosted back, I'm genuinely sorry to say), but I've also looked at some profiles and thought that I couldn't see myself ever doing something sexual with them, even in a gut punching session. And I freely admit, I myself have a face for radio.
At this point, I feel like I could settle for just the experience of being punched, kneed, kicked, etc. in the gut. I could settle for just finally getting to know what that actually feels like from another person. But I don't know any more if I still care about the personal relationship side of things. I've talked with so many guys on here and genuinely wanted friendship, but now I just imagine myself stood in front of a big gloryhole that's level with my abs and just getting pounded on by anyone who happens to show up. I've become quite selfish in my desperation.
What I mean is, there's limitations to how I feel comfortable meeting people, and on top of everything else, I just don't know if it's even possible anymore. If I could, I'd snap my fingers and magically will a gut punching machine into existence (or a tennis ball one).
Not to make anyone suddenly feel defensive, but from the bottom of my heart, I know how people are on here, so I know this post will either likely be met with indifference or contempt, possibly empathy by one or two. I don't know. I don't even know what I hope to gain here.
Young-ish nobody whining at clouds.